I've been really homesick. REALLY homesick. Like bawling my eyes out everyday. It really sucks. Nearly all of my friends got to go home this weekend, or get to see some sort of family member or friend who comes to visit them or takes them away. I've been stuck here and I will continue to be stuck here until Germain's wedding, and even then it's only a day. I guess I should stop complaining. Some people don't even really have homes to go home to, so, really, I'm lucky. I just miss it so so so so so so much and it really sucks not being able to see Pancho and Aaron and everyone. I miss Moma too, and it's going to be even longer until I see her! As soon as I get a car, though, it will be so much easier to go Home. I know I won't be able to go Home every weekend, but it will become so much easier.
Chanel and I are looking into housing this week! We're going on an apartments tour this week so we can hopefully pick out one that will be suitable for both of us and then we'll submit an application and we'll be roomies. Chanel is super duper awesome! You would all really like her, I think. I hope that everyone has the chance to meet her eventually (Mom and Budda, mostly, though, and all you homies that read this-- Anna, Jessica, Jessica, Zach?).
I didn't do so well on my midterms. I got a D on my Physics (which was the class average) and a 75% on my Psych (which was higher than the class average). Both of these classes are going to be curved, now, but it still really sucks because I studied and I actually thought I was going to do alright. So, now, because I didn't do well, I'm dropping out of SJA, which really disappoints me, but I have to do what I have to do. I'm here for academics, and that's what I have to focus on. I've been making sure to do my homework everyday and get help from friends if I don't understand something. Creative Writing and Islam are both going pretty well, but I need to get AT LEAST B's in Physics and Psych, and hopefully I'll be able to bring them up to A's. I've never NOT been an A student, really... I even got all A's last quarter, so this is going to be really hard if I get B's in two of my classes. I can't let that happen. I really can't. So, I really am quitting SJA (I was deliberating, but I think actually writing it and saying it out loud rather than questioning it out loud solidifies the decision). Also, they are cancelling all English 1C classes for freshmen and sophomores, but we can replace the requirement by taking Intro to Western Religions or Religious Myths and Rituals, which could be interesting but I was really looking forward to taking English.
Now, I'm looking into taking these classes: Spanish 4, Islam Cultures, Math for Humanities Majors, and another class that I haven't figured out yet. I'm trying to compile my tentative schedules (another reason I had to drop out of SJA was because our big March 4th protest conflicts with my Creative Writing and Islam classes AND my registration period for classes, which can't happen. I HAVE TO REGISTER AT THE TIME ALLOTTED TO ME OR ELSE I WILL MISS OUT!!!). Ugh. This really sucks. I don't want to have to quit because I made a commitment and I feel like such a jerk for quitting, but I have to do what I have to do to make sure my grades stay up and I get the classes that I need next quarter.
I just realized that this is really boring, but it's nearly 3 in the morning and I'm tired and grrrr arrrgh, so I guess I will close with (until tomorrow when I write one that's in greater detail and more upbeat)
I want to get a hamster for next year, but I don't know if it's really a good idea. I guess I can go into more detail tomorrow. I guess all this really does is serve as a reminder to write about getting a hamster. Alrighty. Until tomorrow.
College is hard. I didn't even go to an academic school and it was hard. As for being homesick, I will see you at the wedding and it will be cool to get together with the whole family. How often does THAT happen? and only a couple of short weeks away! The one thing that you have to realise is that this is only the beginning of your journey away from home. Homesickness won't last forever...and having a car is going to make it easier. Try your best to focus on the positive. As Locke would say, "Don't tell me what I can't do!" (this includes when talking to yourself...)
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