ATTENTION CHANEL: HERE, I AM GOING TO TALK ABOUT LOST, NOT IN GREAT DETAIL, BUT I AM STILL GOING TO DO IT. IF YOU WANT TO, SKIP TO THE PART AFTER THE ALL CAPITALS ENDING NOTE. THERE, IT WILL BE SAFE TO READ.
"The best we can do is live our lives with enlightened improvisation — to be so self-aware and fearless that we can live fully in the present and redeem our every moment and every human connection."
I took this quote from this a good article I read after LOST ended, which you can read here:
http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,20313460_20387946,00.htmlJust in case the link doesn't show, copy/paste it:
(http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,20313460_20387946,00.html)
It's pretty silly at points, especially the author's sarcasm (sort of like Sawyer) but it did make me understand and accept the ending of LOST. Now that I know the ending, I feel as though I need to go back and watch the entire series again so I can pick up on all the hints that they were dropping. It all makes sense. Mom, you were right. They were dead the whole time and they were just trying to reconcile it. Hurley made it possible for us to see everything that was happening to them, both on the island and in the sideways reality. In an ACTION mindset, I wish the ending had been more epic-- you know, Desmond and Jack team up like "brothers" and find a way to demolish smokey and atone for the real John Locke's death. I could picture Desmond saying to the smoke monster, "See you in another life, brotha" before, I don't know, sucking him into a magic lamp like a genie or something (obviously not that, but something more than Locke being rendered mortal and Jack hurling him off a cliff). Thinking about it, though, I'm glad it ended as it did. It's more philosophical. It gives LOST fans more room to think about the possibilities outside of LOST as well.
I don't remember-- was Richard Alpert in the church at the end? And what was with Ben staying outside by himself-- does that mean that Ben is choosing to remain in purgatory, to reflect on his living actions and think about what he could have done differently? He had the invite, yet he chose to stay?
"...when you fight true evil with necessary evil, it's still evil. And evil has a cost."
I don't think Ben was evil. He was misguided, but he had a heart and a soul, and he loved. He just outwardly showed his love for himself over his love for others, and his cost was staying outside while all the LOST bros were partying in Heaven or in the electromagnetic glow or whatever it was. By the way, did you see the stained glass window in the church when Christian was talking to Jack? It was broken into six segments, with six different religious/spiritual symbols. I thought that was really good in showing that people from all walks of life-- all faiths, all cultures, all personalities-- can come together in a community and build a family. It's true, and I'm glad that they were able to put that message in there.
CHANEL!!! IT IS SAFE TO READ AGAIN!
It's well past my birthday, so I guess I can return to last week and write about it. My birthday was alright. Dios played the Barn and Joel dedicated the show to me, which was really sweet. My friends came out and I think they were all really into Dios, or at least they said they were. I'm always really proud of my friends in bands that I know, be it people I'm close to like Dios or Grandaddy or Good Luck Thrift Store Outfit, or people that are friends but that I only see a few times a year-- Silversun Pickups, Bright Eyes, Earlimart. People all over the world LOVE them, and I love them in the same way and in a completely different way, so I really love when I find out that people dig the music that my friends make. I can never quite wrap my finger around the fact that people don't really know what life like this is like-- living with "rock stars" and being friends with people who are famous, I guess, that travel all over the world. It's what I'm used to-- it's the life that I know. I still get a little bit confused when people don't know those situations though. I mean, I shouldn't, I know that it's not really NORMAL, but it's normal to me. I don't know when it's okay to talk about that part of my life to people-- I usually wait until I've established a friendship with someone, or at least until we are well-acquainted. It's hard to judge those situations sometimes, though. I don't know. It's just a thought that I have sometimes. Actually, only with one of my friends when I told them that my dad was a musician did he say, "Oh, that's really cool! I'd love to be in the music industry..." (That was HORRIBLE grammar!) It was surprising and almost relieving. But I guess it's natural for people to be curious-- I'm always curious about others' backgrounds as well. I'd like to know where someone comes from and what they're used to and the environments that they live in. People are always changing according to their surroundings, and I love observing that.
After my birthday, things have been a little weird, but I won't explain it. David Sedaris told me, "Know when it's okay to share something and when it's not." I just miss home a lot; I think we all do. The pressure's on, you know. We have to kick ass on our finals, we have to pack, we have to make moving arrangements, we have to prepare for a transition back into the lives that we once knew only to find that everything has changed. I mean, it's not going to be WEIRD, for me at least, I don't think, but there is always potential for it to be. I've been locking myself in my room a lot, being solitary and trying to finish all my projects so I can head home a week early! Things are going good so far. I've got two stories to revise, and I'm ALMOST done with one. Hopefully I can spill out this last one or I'm stuck here until after Wednesday, June 9th, instead of heading home on the 6th. So, that's what my weekend is going to be like-- again. Everyone's going home or going camping or hanging out with their other friends, and I'm going to lock myself in my room and attempt to write a short story that I don't really feel passionate about anymore. But that's what my life is going to be like, and it fits me, I guess. Writing, revision, writing, revision. I try not to focus on the past too much anymore. It's been happening too much recently, but it's really affecting my present state of mind. I need to make some resolutions. For revolution. For bandana summer. I need to figure out how much money I can set aside for tattoos this summer. And-- yes-- I am getting more and I am going to love them for the rest of my life.
Just to throw in another interesting article, I found this one: "A Link Between Creativity and Mental Illness is Very Strong"
http://health-psychology.suite101.com/pages/article.cfm/a-marriage-of-creativity-and-mental-illness-is-very-strong(http://health-psychology.suite101.com/pages/article.cfm/a-marriage-of-creativity-and-mental-illness-is-very-strong)
I found this section of the article to be very interesting. Now, before you worry, I do not think that there is anything WRONG with me. I stumbled upon this article (courtesy of stumbleupon.com) and thought it worthy of noting in this blog entry. Even if I did have some strange mental disorder, who cares? I've been fighting this long, and I might as well keep doing it. I love breathing and looking at things. I love the beating of a hummingbird's wings in my ear, even when I cannot see the ruby-throat. I attribute my creativity (and maturity?) to the way I was raised. I think that kids with artistic parents are always a little weirder than kids without, and there's nothing wrong with that. Actually, what I want to know is where kids with non-creative parents get their creativity, where they find inspiration at such a young age to let themselves loose on paper or canvas or with musical instruments.
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Is There a Difference Between Male and Female Populations Who are Creative and Mentally Ill?According to the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM), this study revealed that writers had significantly higher lifetime prevalence rates than controls (those without mental illnesses) for all mood disorders (80% versus 30%), for bipolar disorder (43% versus 10%), and for alcoholism (30% versus 7%).
The results of a recent study suggested that female writers were more likely than members of the comparison group (females without mental illness) to suffer not only from mood disorders but from drug abuse, panic attacks, general anxiety, and eating disorders as well. Even more interesting, according to another study, female poets were found to be significantly more likely to suffer from mental illness than female fiction writers or male writers of any type."
In other news, I've been thinking about why I hate dolphins so much. The answer is: I don't really know. There's just something eerie, something DANGEROUS about dolphins. I know they're intelligent, and I respect that, I don't want any harm to befall dolphins. I was terribly upset when the Yangtze Porpoise of China went extinct (it was reported in The Week last year). Don't get me wrong, dolphins are awesome! They can recognize themselves. I appreciate dolphins. I just have no real connection to them and I do not desire one. All of my fears about dolphins are ridiculous-- dolphins aren't really going to rise to land upon their fins and take over the world, dolphins don't USUALLY attack surfers and attempt to drag them down (they're just playing anyway, I think). My friends always get pretty upset with my for disliking dolphins. But, just look at this picture:

Isn't that the face of evil? Probably not. It's a joke. But still. I don't know why I dislike dolphins. I shouldn't, and I'll work on it. Maybe I just need to come to understand dolphins more. Maybe I need to do some dolphin research in order to fully appreciate them.
The same goes for raccoons and rattlesnakes. Actually, scratch rattlesnakes. I don't think I'll ever be able to like them.
But something I do like, something I like VERY much, are elephants. I'm not going to go into detail about it, but look at this picture:

Isn't that beautiful? It came from about a man and his elephant comrade, which I suggest you read:
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/worldnews/article-1280638/Making-splash-60-year-old-elephant-going-morning-swim.html?ito=feeds-newsxml(http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/worldnews/article-1280638/Making-splash-60-year-old-elephant-going-morning-swim.html?ito=feeds-newsxml)
In the news this week as well, the first Muslim American woman was crowned Miss USA, and Professor Aslan talks about the myths and misconceptions that people have about women in Islam, points that we have been discussing in my Gender and Islamic Societies class with Professor Hafez. You can read the article here:
(http://www.chron.com/disp/story.mpl/life/main/7025683.html)
However, Reza Aslan sums up the dilemma of this situation (as well as a major emphasis of the course that I am taking now), with this statement:
“There has been this notion of Muslim women as a sexualized object,” Aslan said. “The idea of the harem and the veil as providing some forbidden sexuality has become totally fetishized in the Western world. And it's a completely false notion, of course. The veil is neither a symbol of oppression nor a symbol of sexuality. It is whatever a Muslim woman wearing the veil says it is.”Having been in the Islam sequence for a full year, I appreciate Islam a lot more than I once did. I have learned much more, and am not afraid to talk about it or defend it when others who have no real idea of what Islam is about attack the faith. I do not support fundamentalist terrorists who say that they do their "work" in the name of God, and as Dr. Muhamad Ali told us, neither do most Muslims. It is wrong to stereotype all Muslims as terrorists when it is only a small percentage who commit "acts of terror."
I'm rambling. What I really mean to say is this: I'm considering minoring in Religious Studies. I have been considering psychology, and while that would be interesting, I don't really see myself leaning toward that. I've always played with the idea of religion in my head, and I love to learn about the different religions and faiths of the world. I am drawn to it. Faith is a HUGE motivation for many people in the world, and I want to understand that. For now, it is just a consideration, but I am going to try to take a religious studies class next fall (it counts for my ethnic studies class as well as my English 1C class, and if I do minor in Religious Studies, it will count as a prerequisite for that).
This really has no connection, but look at these photographs of freerunners around the world. It's AWESOME! I would love to see someone freerunning in real life. If I were tall, skinny, agile, and athletic, I would definitely try freerunning.
(http://totallycoolpix.com/2010/02/freerunning/)